New flow

New life new flow updates. Lets see. Since I last posted on here...

I've graduated from college with a degree.

Moved into my own place with no roommates.

Adopted a cat....

And the list goes on and on. I miss writing and need to get back into it.

Running

So lately I've been going stircrazy because I don't have a car and theres not much near where I live (just a couple of fast food restaurants) and the nearest bus stop is 3 miles away and the nearest mall is 4 miles away so theres not much where I live. So I've been thinking that its time for me to start running early in the morning. My schedule just changed at work so I dont have to be at work till nearly an hour later then I usually am getting there so I'm thinking I can still get up at the same time I have been getting up at and start going for a run for 30 minutes. I'm thinking it would be a great way to start my day and lose weight (which I do need to do) and get in shape. I get paid this week and I do need to buy a new pair of shoes so I'm thinking a good pair of athletic shoes would be a good investment. Any thoughts?

Innocence

So I moved back to Arizona to attempt to reconnect with my family but yet I feel so apart from them even when we are in the same room sitting next to each other. I love them but i love them enough to let them go. Innocence was stripped away from me years ago and I know I can never go back to those days. I've come too far and seen too much to return to the innocent days. Once innocence has been lost it can never be recovered and I have lost my innocence.

Blow the dust away

Time to blow the dust off this blog and do a few updates.


I quit Red Lobster. I am now back currently working at my old retail job and while I am treated well and have decent managers and coworkers, I don't feel like I am going anywhere there, but its a means to an ends.

I'm starting Massage Therapy School in less than two weeks.

I really feel like this blog is going nowhere...

Breath

Breath

For years I’ve watched in silence,

 as you rip you heart out each day, 

in relationships that fade. 

As quietly as a breeze, 

I observed, day by day, 

knowing we can never be more than friends. 

I comfort you when you are down, 

you ignore me till you are down and then I’m the one you call. 

The tall quiet one. 

But eventually relationships fade, 

and like a breeze I blow away...

I need to work up the courage to ask my boss for more hours as opposed to her cutting my hours.

Building a new life for myself

I've decided that its time to start somewhere new where I do not know anyone and build a new life for myself. I have to live near the ocean because I really need that in my life again so it has to be the Coastal Western US or the Coastal Eastern US. I am so out of the Southwest late this coming Spring or early into Summer. Edit: Well I had a job interview at a place here in Utah on Monday and I got a callback from them today, saying that they wanted me to come in for another interview on Saturday. I will take that as a good sign that things are finally working out for me. I think I have figured out where I want to move to but to make it happen, I need to get this job that I have a second interview for, save up either enough for a large car downpayment or enough to buy a decent used car in cash, save up enough to have money for moving and first and last months rent and deposits and whatnot, pay off some bills here and get things straightened out so I can move, get rid of stuff so I only have a few things to take with me when I move. I need to get out of here by late spring or early summer so lets make this happen!