Innocence

So I moved back to Arizona to attempt to reconnect with my family but yet I feel so apart from them even when we are in the same room sitting next to each other. I love them but i love them enough to let them go. Innocence was stripped away from me years ago and I know I can never go back to those days. I've come too far and seen too much to return to the innocent days. Once innocence has been lost it can never be recovered and I have lost my innocence.