The river

First lets start this post with an awesome song called "The River" by Good Charlotte.



As I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
Have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
To know that beautiful things
Don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
To know this beautiful place
Isn't everything they say

I heard that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
Underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood
On the boulevard
The dead come back to life

To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't
You'll know

They sing that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels
I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own) I wanna be delivered
(on my own, on my own)

Baptized in the river (on my own) I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own) I wanna be delivered Baptized in the river ( on my own) I wanna be delivered

I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered




I think this song parallels my life. Im from what used to be a small town in Maryland. However since its about 30 minutes away from D.C. its not a small town anymore and I dont know anyone from there anymore. There are days when I wished I had lived in the same place my whole life but that didnt happen so thats life. I know if I went back to Maryland it wouldnt be the same as I remember it from my childhood. I dont know anyone there, my childhood best friend is on a mission and hasnt been back to Maryland since he was a kid either. We also dont connect anymore since we hadnt seen each other since we were little kids till last summer when I showed up at his mission farewell which was fun to surprise his whole family. He didnt recognize me and his Mom thought I looked familiar and was shocked when I said who I was. I cant go back to Arizona either. I dont like the weather there and I would pass out there now because its summertime and I do not handle heat well at all and I really have no reason to go back. I dont really have any High School friends to hang out as in High School I was antisocial for various reasons one of them being I absolutely hated the High School I went to and it was a 30 minute drive away from where I lived and I didnt socialise with the people my age where I lived because they were cliquey holier than thou disfellowshippers to me. So I mostly kept to myself so I really dont know the first thing about socialising. As a matter of fact Im still trying to figure out who I am. HELP!