Oh joy

I really need to see a doctor about not being able to sleep... and a chiropractor. This sucks when I really want to sleep but cant and then I eventually pass out from sheer exhaustion. Why is it impossible to get a nights sleep without being in pain!?!

I need to escape

Things are not working out for me here. I have a decent job but things got so out of hand I dropped out of school and I just need to escape this place next summer. So I'm looking for a second job at the moment to pay off my bills and to start saving up so I can get out of here. I need to disappear for a while when I move and I dont know where I will be moving to.

4 am

4 am and I still cant sleep. The insomnia is getting worse. I should be asleep relieved and happy by the past few days events... My lab results came back negative meaning I dont have diabetes like I thought, I had a blast the other night going to Ihop at night with a group of friends from work and were talking about making it an annual thing on every payday. But I think the underlying factor to why I cant sleep is stress. Stress over family and communication, school, life... I'm still trying to figure out solutions to each thing and yet I cant figure out solutions at the moment. I know I will figure it out eventually but at the moment I digress.

Update

Hmm. Well I decided to look around for a new job to see what I can find. I've worked at the same place for over a year now and while its a good job, I'm a bit bored working there and want to see if I can find something else. So I've been tweaking my resume and applying for a few jobs online.

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There are days when I wish I could reboot my life.

Changes...

So today I was thinking and realised that I've made quite a few subtle changes in my life recently. I got a new bedspread, some new clothes, changed my hair, lost some weight. Its definitely interesting to see myself going through some change.

Soooo....

Random thought... I am going to ask my manager to switch to unloading (as in unloading merchandise from the trucks) because I would like a change from cashiering. Hopefully Walmart will live up to its name of letting their employees try new things. Or I might be seeing if Smiths or Target are hiring.