In Memory

Its been over a year since my Grandfather passed away. I will never forget the night he passed away. That memory will be with me till the day I die. That night I listened to Photograph by Nickelback over and over for several hours. A year later on the anniversary of his passing I listened to the song again and I gained some closure. However I listened to "You'll be in my Heart" by Phil Collins today and couldnt help but think of my Grandfather. I still miss him. He was a great listener and had an interesting sense of humour and was always good for a hug. He loved hot sauce and I remember giving him a bottle of it for a wedding present when he was getting married again several years after my Grandmother passed away, and he put some of it on his piece of wedding cake! Point being, I miss him. I think next year if I can afford it, Im going to take a roadtrip down to Arizona and visit his grave to visit him and find some additional closure.

I am me

I am me. I listen to Lady Gaga, Nickelback, Linkin Park, Simple Plan, and whatever else I feel like listening to. I like photography, music, movies, etc... I am a person, an individual, a personality. I am me. And me is going out country dancing tonight for his first time! :)

All time low

The challenge with depression is the constant battle to stay above water. At the moment my depression is at an all time low. I rarely go out except to go to work, the rest of the time I stay home, watch movies, listen to music. I rarely get texts or calls from anyone. Im really wondering what the point is in trying anymore. I need friends who will text me to see how my day is going, to hang out with me at night when Im not at work, to give me something to look forward to when I get off work. This sucks. I need to get out of here.